Sunday, June 10, 2007: fear.
i dont know how much of what i'm feeling now is from fear of failure, some of it is coming from anxiety too. i need to calm down.
oh man.
i'm afraid that the paper is going to be difficult;
i'm afraid that i forget how to answer the questions;
i'm afraid that i forgot what i revised;
i'm afraid that i get there late;
i'm afraid that 3 hours wont be enough;
i'm afraid of getting tricked by the questions;
i'm afraid that i get below the average;
i'm even more afraid that i get below 50%.
bottomline,
i'm afraid of failure.
perhaps its always only in the end when i feel regret; that i didnt put in enough effort throughout the whole term. FA was by far the most challenging unit this semester; it won handsdown the most boring, monotonous and difficult topic. maybe i just didnt take enough effort to appreciate the unit.
but there's nothing i can do now, i can only leave it all into God's hands and try to stop worrying about it. i can only trust that God has my best interest at heart.
AH I DONT WANT TO FAIL ):
Matthew 6:32-34For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things.
But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.
i should go sleep on it. tomorrow is a new day (:
a shout of praise.
11:01 PM
